im soo frustrated with myself.
im not enough. im not doing enough. im not happy with myself. i waste too much time. i am unhealthy. i have no routine. i have no discipline. i do not know to dress well. i look like shit. my hair is half greyed.
most of this shit is fixable. but i just talk and think and not act. this shit is frustrating. i see this shit happen all the fucking time and its frustrating.
i cant take it anymore. i shouldn’t. i am done with excuses. i am done with this shit. i have to fix myself and i will. i say/write this everytime i get frustrated enough, and at best get in track for a few days and then fall off. i keep falling, i cant take it anymore.
i let some shit that is happening in my life, which i cant control derail me everytime. not anymore. i need to not let anything come in the way of this shit.
- i will walk/run do some sort of exercise every fucking day.
- i will end my day early, get adequate sleep every day.
- i will read everyday before bed.
- i will work every day with full focus and determination and will not cut any corners. or be good enough. i know i am better.
- i will not make any excuses no matter how much sense they make for shit i have to do, and i will cultivate discipline in doing so.
- i will work to reduce/manage my stress better.
- i will focus on skincare. i will fix my skin. i will fix my face.
- i will eat healthy everyday.
this is it. if not now, when?? its already late. how late do u want it to get for u take action? are you fucking stupid?? i know youre not, then why the fuck are you acting dumb?? do u think acting dumb is smart?? you dumb fucking piece of shit? its not. its not smart to act dumb. its not smart to do provably destructive/wrong shit for in case, maybe it turns out to be the smart thing to do. it never fucking is fker, it never is smart.
STOP DOING STUPID SHIT. YOU ARE BETTER.